This thought came to me today. I could very well do only what I feel like doing, take control of my life and be just myself. I may even achieve something in this world, making a name for myself and even benefiting others as a result. I could really enjoy my own "freedom," even though I may have to fight many battles along the way on my own. Well, I used to think and live that way. Now I see clearly that if I were to go through all my life like that and do not change to become a holier person before God, then I shall have wasted all my time on earth. In other words, I busy myself all life and end up being still the same old me (or possibly a lot worse).
Doing one small will of God is infinitely more meaningful and meritorious than doing one million wills of my own. I am happy that by God's grace, I had come to realize this truth.