In today's Gospel reading from John 12, Jesus said to his disciples: "Amen, amen, I say to you, unless a grain of wheat falls to the ground and dies, it remains just a grain of wheat; but if it dies, it produces much fruit. Whoever loves his life loses it, and whoever hates his life in this world will preserve it for eternal life." I see that we must die to ourselves so that the Lord may take over. Otherwise, we stand in our own way and remain unfruitful our whole life. He who loves his own life has attached himself to the world. To hate one's life to is be detached from the world. We cannot love God and the world at the same time. The more you know the Lord, the uglier the world becomes to us. If you "hate" this world, you are close to God. Now, go all the way to become one with him.