No one ever forced me to believe. No one ever indoctrinated me. No one ever brainwashed me. I was free to make own decisions at all times. I didn't talk to anyone during my search, only read books both for and against God on my own. I remained objective, sincere, and came to believe in him. Gradually I opened myself up more and more and God started to speak to me in my heart. And finally, I came to know him most intimately (with the aid of receiving the Holy Eucharist). It all came about naturally and I now believe in him without a tinge of doubt. It's all God's doing. Bless him.