In Reading 1 from Romans 8 at Mass today, Paul talks quite a bit about living according to the flesh and living according to the spirit. I went through all that myself, going from darkness to light. Now that I am so joyful living in the light of Christ, I have trouble believing that I was actually that "stupid" to be a slave of sin for so long. I was stupid all right, but it's through God's mercy that I was brought out of slavery into freedom. Just let God take over and your day will just keep getting better and brighter forever (because heaven awaits at the end).